If Only

Filling the hours without you
Gets harder all the time
I grasp memories to fill the void
Pictures in my mind
It always comes back to one thing
A simple act, a gesture really
That fills my heart with warmth
And allows the moment to pass

I see it in my waking moments
I dream it when I sleep
The sight of it explodes on me
Like fireworks in July
I search for it when you are near
And it never seems to fail
To bring joy to this battered soul
And take my breath away

I only wonder what could be better
Than the sight of it so bright
What could send my heart raising
What could bring such delight
And then it hits me
The idea that could surpass it all
To think that your smile is there
And if only I was the cause